Lock it in.

As a third trimester senior, who already knows where she’s going to school and whose parents no longer care about GPA and straight-A’s, how the hell am I supposed to stay motivated?

I guess what it really comes down to is the amount of pressure I have put on myself to get things done and be successful in my schooling. It’s a habit that never came naturally, but came out of much trial and error over the years, on top of my fear of failure. 

Okay, now I’m at the point where I know I’m not going to fail. Some way or another I will proudly walk the stage June 3rd in the sky blue cap and gown. So I go back to the question. How the hell am I supposed to stay motivated?

I’m fortunate enough to be at the point where all I have left to do is to wrap up some long term assignments. With that being the case, I know I would rather put my best foot forward and make a good effort than turn something in subpar. 

BUT BUT BUT

The weather is getting nicer!

My extracurriculars are done! 

Summer is on my doorstep! 

That’s why I am asking…

How the hell am I supposed to stay motivated?!?!

Here’s what I tell myself (and you should too!):

The last 13 years of my life have been leading up to the moment I graduate. It’ll open up a new and scary (but so so so exciting) time in my life. Why not finish strong? Why not show everyone what I can really do? Even when everyone else is struggling, persevere! 

If I let myself shut down and lose the momentum started 13 years ago, what would happen to my readiness for the next level of education? There is so much uncertainty at my doorstep, but I can’t let it consume me. I have to live not only in the moment, but for the hope of it all. 

In short, there’s one thing I can do:

Lock it in.